Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Random Thoughts in the Morning

I'm jet-lagged. Its now 5 AM and I've been awake, tossing and turning in my bed since 3AM. So I thought I'd rather just write random stuffs than lying in bed, thinking about why my ceiling fan looks like a creepy, hanging, flat potato in the darkness.
What do you think about at this hour? My head just feels heavy and blank.
So, maybe I should just recount my last travel experience. Not the city, but my flight back home.
I sat next to this guy named Anand. He's a global SVP in a giant IT company. And we got talking about life and job. He told me how he cried reading this book about leaders who were asked to review their lives in their old age and how their regrets in life weren't about more money, but meaningful things in life.
And then he asked me what I'd do if I had all the money in the world. "Primary teacher" I replied, "And write children's books". Hello again, old little secret.
In middle school, I had a science teacher who made me fall in love with the stars. She made science fun for me and I'd spend every night staring at the sky, loving every minute of it. To this day, astronomy remains one of my true love.
But sometimes, in life, you do completely different things than what you set out to do. And you tell yourself that 'someday' you're going to do what you want, over and over, until you half-believe it. Bummer.
Wow, what a negative first thought in the morning! I sure woke up from the wrong side of bed today!!

"I am an iron resisting the most enormous magnet there is" - Rumi.

Aaah, hello Rumi, my favourite poet. I love Rumi's poems. No wonder I remember his quote. Love specially his poems on wine. I still wish someone's written a poem about me like that. Unfortunately, knowing my husband, maybe I will have to keep that for my next lifetime.

Have you ever met someone in your life and you knew immediately that this was different?

The more you talked to them, the more you felt like that person was a reflection of you? Same thought process, values, likes, dislikes...you knew instinctively that you'd compliment each other like yin & yang.

And then reality kicked in. Oops, that train passed long ago. Stick to your lane, dreamboat.

I wonder what Rumi ultimately did with the magnet. Did he resist it until the end? Or, did he finally said to himself, "chug it, let me see where this goes"?

I am extremely curious. I once got stung by hundreds of bees because I wanted to know what happen if I hit the beehive with a rock. My mom forbade me to go near it. It just made me more curious. Every time she pulled me in the house, I wanted to hit that beehive more and more. I needed to see what happened. I ended up walking around with a huge, swollen face and head for few weeks, unable to eat or sleep.

So I have a knack of getting into trouble out of curiosity. I wonder, have I really grown up yet this time?

  

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